I am in the middle of writing seminar papers, and for some obscure reason, I am wholeheartedly trying to meet one of my new-year resolutions, which is to write a paper that is truly publishable. (Not necessarily to publish it but to try to write high quality papers.)
Libraries, books, articles and primary sources are, of course, the integral part of my research. But the further I go, the more impressed and grateful I am with my professors’ help. Obviously, they are incredibly smart, knowledgeable and passionate about scholarship. They can understand and even re-articulate my points from my mumbles and confusing explanations about my research.
The thing is, I feel very lucky to have them as my teachers, but at the same time, it is very hard to foresee myself doing that job in the future. It is intimidating and even scary at this stage to think about it.